with 2020 less than a week away i find myself doing that thing that we all do… looking back on what has been and looking forward to the future and where we hope to go. with that in mind…
dear the 10s,
there is so much i want to say about the last decade and the ride i’ve been on but there are simply not enough words. or maybe there are actually too many.
i can confidently say i am a totally different person going into 2020 than i was going in to the year 2010 (and thank fuck for that)
there are some lessons that i learnt along the way (in sometimes the harshest ways) that i want to share for anyone that may wish to hear them…
🌸if people want you in their life, they will make time. they will make an effort. you can waste so much time chasing people and wanting people who don’t want you.
🌼how people behave is a reflection of how they feel about themselves, truly. even when it’s hard to believe sometimes.
🌸not everyone will like you. and that’s ok. it’s not your job to convince them you’re a good person and worth their time. let them miss out.
🌼there is such a thing as being too kind. too gracious. too understanding. don’t be a mug.
🌸life can’t be planned, as much as you would like to think it can be, it can’t. there will always be something that happens that you can’t plan. you can’t control what happens to you but you can control how you react to it
🌼it should be a legal requirement for everyone to go to therapy
🌸having emotions is ok. you’re allowed to feel how you feel. even if people don’t understand it, you’re not wrong for feeling how you do
🌼stop trying to make yourself smaller so you don’t intimidate people or scare them off. the right ones will stay
🌸people will generally be disappointing. they can’t always show up for you. it doesn’t mean they don’t care. even if you think it does
🌼 when your head becomes too loud, get out. break the cycle. write. sing. dance. run. they will all help (if you’re feeling really brave you can tell someone else)
🌸social media ; fun, but super fake
🌼everyone has their shit going on, so try not to be too much of an asshole
🌸life can be messy but still worth living. mistakes are essential to learn and grow but a mistake can only happen once. twice makes it is a choice.
🌼 if you love someone, let them know. you can never regret putting a little more love out in the universe
🌸 there are good people out there, try to trust in them.
🌼 if you can survive the next 10 seconds, you can survive anything
nothing particularly new or noteworthy there but things we all definitely need to be reminded of on occasion.
to my friends that came into this decade with me and have stuck around this whole time… rach, mark, jade, dalby, den, byng, amy, 504 galdem. bloody hell… ten years! we’ve had fun! thank you. for all the memories. i’ve had some of the best times of my life with you guys this last year and decade. i can’t wait to see what the next 10 bring 💓
the 10’s will be forever known as the decade the three loves of my life entered the world. 2011, 2015, 2017. they make life worth living. if i never get my own kids, these guys are the next best thing. and now i’m thinking about them i just want to squeeze them. oooh.
we lost some of the greatest this decade too and even now i find it hard to comprehend that they’re not here 🌈🐯🐘 ☘️ we have remembered them in the best ways and will continue to do so in the 20’s because, as we all know, the ones we love never truly leave us.
i’m going into 2020 trying to be grateful for the confusion that this last month or so has brought. i’ve honestly been so sad at my core these last few weeks. even if people haven’t seen it. on more than one occasion i have cried myself to sleep. not ideal really. god bless byng and amy for putting up with my teary voice notes; i promise you won’t always have to put up with them.
the me at the beginning of this decade would never have pictured me ending the it where i am. id honestly be most disappointed in myself. i definitely thought i’d have it all figured out by now… maybe that’s the biggest lesson of all… none of us have a clue what we’re doing and just making it up as we go…
i don’t have a clue what the next ten years are going to bring… it’s scary and exciting all at the same time. i guess that’s life. i know for certain – possibly for the first time ever – what i want though. and that makes taking the first step a little easier.
wishing you all nothing but goodness for 2020 and beyond