Desert Island Discs

 

Good morrow to you the reader of this post.

I hope this finds you all well. It is 11:26 on a Saturday morning, I have worked 750 hours this week, stood sodden in a field (ok well, Kew Gardens) whilst finally seeing one of my favourite singers live during the biggest downpour of the week – I think I’m still damp. I now have a weekend off – Halle-bloody-lujah!

This weeks post – as given away by the title – is my desert island discs. Some of you will be familiar with the BBC4 radio show, others the podcast version. I do not listen to Radio 4 (shocking, I know) but I have recently discovered the podcast and it may be my new favourite thing; as I write this I am listening to Russell Brand’s episode.

For those that don’t know the format here’s what it looks like. Each show there is a new castaway, they choose 8 discs they can take with them to a desert island. They then get to chose one over all others that they would save. It then got me to thinking about what my desert island discs would be – it was really effin hard to choose and ask me next week and I may have changed my mind BUT for now here are mine.

 

Paolo Nutini –Candy

I have long been a fan of Paolo. I remember seeing him in a small venue in Camden back in, maybe, 2009 and I was blown away by two things; the voice and the sweat- I have never seen someone sweat that much!

There are so many memories attached to this song and it reminds me of a time when I was truly happy – I didn’t really realise just how happy I was until I wasn’t anymore but this song always makes me smile and takes me back, at least in my head, to that time.

 

Dizzee Rascal – Fix Up, Look Sharp

 What a bad boy tune. This reminds me of being a teenager at school and whilst I wasn’t particularly enamored with school and I don’t have massively fond memories of that time I have always loved this song and I was at school the first time I heard it. Now it’s my go to song when I need to get motivated, as soon as I hear that first ‘Oiiiiii’ I just smile and think YES SON.

 

Andrea Bocelli – Con Te Partiro

Switching it up a tad from grime to classical… this song is just magic. Andrea’s voice is outstanding. It has such a calming effect on me and I cant help but just close my eyes and appreciate it when I hear it. Big up my dad for bringing Andrea into my life.

 

Passenger – Holes

If you have me on social media you’ll know I saw him live for the first time this week. I was soaked to the bone but standing in the middle of Kew Gardens in my own little Passenger filled bubble was the happiest I’ve been in a long while. Holes is my favourite song of his and so you can imagine my delight when he closed the show with this.

For me, this song is all about human resilience. It reminds me that we all have our shit but you gotta just pick yourself up and carry on. It’s a good reminder to not wallow in self pity. “We’ve got holes in heart, yeah we’ve got holes in our lives. Where we’ve got holes, we’ve got holes but we carry on”

 

Christina Perri – I believe

 For someone who seems to constantly question herself and is always a bit confused by life this is a brilliant, almost theme tune. The lyrics are what speak to me more than anything and it’s my go –to song whenever I’ve felt a bit lost or been lost in the haze of mental illness. Those of you that suffer with Mental Health problems know it can totally strip you of your identity and this song always kind of brings me back and reminds me it’s a phase and to just breathe.

 

Perfume Genius – Can’t Help Falling in Love

Everyone knows this song but not everyone knows this version. One of my favourite things is when people send me new music to listen to and my favourite sarcastic ray of sunshine sent me this a year or so ago. It’s now one of my most played songs. I adore it.

 

Kid Cudi – Pursuit of Happiness

 My theme tune. That’s all you need to know.

 

John Lennon – Just Like Starting Over

Surprised? Of course John made the list, it would be wrong to go to a desert island without him. I struggled to pick a song because I actually have a few of his that I would love to take but this one tops the list.

 

The song I would save above all others is Kid Cudi’s Pursuit of Happiness.

 

Kirsty Young (who hosts) also gives all castaways the Bible, the complete work of Shakespeare and one other book of their choice so my book will be a ‘How to play piano’ book. I am always annoyed that I never bothered to pick up and learn how to play.

I did consider Harry Potter but I don’t think a series of books is allowed and I would just become frustrated with the fact I couldn’t finish the series.

 

My Luxury Item would be a piano to go with my book– how cool would it be to go to a desert island for a while and then come back with a new talent?

 

And that’s it.

 

What would your desert island discs be? Tell me do.

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I’m on the pursuit of happiness.

Are you happy? Genuinely happy? Take a minute to think about your life are you happy with it? Sure it’s not perfect, no one’s life is, but are you happy with it?

 

My answer would be no.

 

Sure I have happy moments – when I’m playing football with MJ, or walking along Brighton pier with Rach and Oscar, visiting my Irish or American families etc. – but these moments of happiness are fleeting. The happiness never seems to stay. No matter how much I look for it. It seems to elude me.

There is a quote that get’s chucked around a fair amount –

 

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But the problem I have with that is this. Happiness is my goal in life, so why would I not chase it? Nothing in this life comes free; nothing is handed to us on a plate. Happiness included.

Please don’t misunderstand me when I say ‘happy with life’, I don’t mean that things are 100% perfect, 100% of the time. This is real life after all. I mean that, when you sit there and think about it, are you are happy with your life the people in it. The job you have. The places you’ve been. The things you’ve done. Everything you’ve seen. Where you’re headed. Are you happy with that when you take the day-to-day stuff out?

Is it my fault that I can’t find a permanent happiness? I’ve been told on more than one occasion that I am never satisfied and that my expectations are too high. I guess I just know what I want, and I don’t want to settle for anything less.

One of my favourite songs is Kid Cudi’s “pursuit of happiness” – the chorus could be my theme tune.

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I’ll be good.

 

There are various scientists that claim to have found the secret to happiness. Dr Sood even has I down to 4 simple steps. According to him 40-50% of our happiness is down to the choices we make and where we put our focus daily. Gratitude also features in his research into the key to happiness.

I am very aware of the many things in life I have to be thankful for. Hash tag blessed. Alas, it still eludes me.

So still, why can’t I find it? Do you know? Am I the only one who feels like this?

Answers on a postcard.

Advice gratefully received.

Xoxo Micks

Read more of Dr. Sood’s work here: http://stressfree.org/

Kid Cudi ‘Pursuit of Happiness’ available to buy on iTunes. The music video is here